It's true. I (Frankie) quite often suck. People are always telling me to not be so hard on myself, but I'm not being hard on myself. I really do suck sometimes. There are days when all I want to do is lay on my couch and play Candy Crush and Words with Friends on my Kindle all day. Maybe this would be okay if it were a lazy Sunday afternoon, but this is usually on a Tuesday when I have hours of work to do, and my phone is ringing off the hook, and I still have to do my morning walk, and I still have to let the dogs out, but all I can think about is how comfy that couch looks and that my Kindle has a full charge. Yeah, I suck, but it's okay.
I used to really beat myself up over this. When I started working from home, for some reason I had the mindset that I was supposed to be "on" all the time. I guess because the work was always right there staring me in the face, I didn’t think I was allowed to suck EVER! Then I started to think about it and realized that even when I worked outside the home, there were days that I totally sucked and I didn’t feel bad about it. If I got the chance to leave work early I would, and I would go straight home and take a nap or get comfy and just lie on the couch and play games or watch some mindless TV. And I was fine with it. I didn't feel guilty.
So, what changed? Like I said, the work was always staring me in the face and I felt much more responsible for everything than I ever had before. This was mine. No one was going to tell me I couldn't lie on the couch and play games all day except me, and I damn sure wasn't going to give myself permission to do that.
But, it's okay to suck sometimes. Maybe you've been staring at a spreadsheet for six hours and you're starting to see zoo animals in the patterns the lines make. Maybe you've talked to eight people on the phone today and seven of them were complete assholes. Maybe you're two hours into a five hour transcription of a talk on the life cycle of larvae. Maybe you NEED to lie on the couch and crush some candy and just suck for a while.
The moral of the story is this: it's okay to suck every now and then. We all do. No one is employee of the month every month, except Sponge Bob, and that's pretty sad. Don't turn out like Sponge Bob. Allow yourself to suck every once in awhile.
Frankie and Andrea take turns sharing stories. Just good talk over a cup of coffee.