I (Andrea) have been working from home for almost nine years now. I have worked with clients on four different continents. I have learned so many different software systems I can’t begin to count them all. I have had times when there has been too much work and times when the crickets chirped and I wondered if I was going to be able to pay my bills.
And then I’ve had times like this. Right now. Where I don’t want to do this any more. I’m tired of working. I’m tired of trying to reach new goals. I’m tired of figuring out what I should write about. I’m tired of developing new products. I’m tired of going through this whole process every day.
I think to myself, I can quit this. Or, I could just go back to an office job. Nice and easy. Not too much independent thinking. No struggle to solve all the problems and do all the work.
I am not “on” right now. I’m sour. I’m defeated. I’m bored. I’m frustrated.
And it’s okay. And I have to tell myself it’s okay. You don’t always have to be “on” when you have your own business. You can’t always be on. It’s exhausting and just not possible.
When you have a “regular” job and you don’t like it, you can just find another to replace it. I’ve done that before. We all have. But when you work from home - when it’s your own business you’ve created - you feel guilty for not liking how things are going. Because this is your baby. This is your effort. And shouldn’t you love it no matter what?
But sometimes you don’t. And you have to realize it’s okay. You’re in a funk where, even though nothing has changed, everything seems bad. It’s not working the way you want. Things aren’t happening the way you want them to. It’s okay. Let the funk happen. I’ve found that sometimes you need to turn off. You need to go into a hole for a bit, think about things, and come back out refreshed, with a better sense of direction.
Frankie and Andrea take turns sharing stories. Just good talk over a cup of coffee.